i am closer to getting it...

grace, that is.

having grown up in church culture, i have been conditioned to do things deemed "necessary" (teaching, studies, kids' programs, general volunteering - you name it), feeling eternally indebted, if i can say that.

but i have been challenged to question (inspired by the reading of yet another provocative book) whether these programs provide spiritual inspiration or whether they are yet another thing i feel guilty about. since we either live in freedom or we do not.

because i believe jesus when he says "we do", i have had to re-think the way i live my life, church included. i'm still in the process - if you figure it out, let me know.

are you still with me?

did i go to church this morning, yes; i was teaching sunday school:)
but last week i thanked god for my children as i pushed them on the swings at the park.

(ps - the author is jake colson - but he's brought me back thee author and perfector of my faith.)